Now that I have scared you all off and I know you won't be reading anything else I write, I feel "safe" writing here. I'm not a great writer but sometimes it's just nice to have a place to get things off my mind.
I was coming home last night from a women's bible study I am doing and running a few childless errands (yes it was VERY NICE!) and I heard something that really struck me....actually it hit me square in the face. Kinda scared me a bit.
I don't know who said it, I was only half listening and then I heard something like this--many Christians today can't make a stand on scripture because they aren't reading the scriptures. They are simply reading what other people say about the scriptures, and not reading it for themselves. So they don't know what the Word of God actually says.
OUCH! That hit me square in the face. I have read a few things lately, and planned to read even more that wonderful people wrote. These books are NOT bad, and God has used them to many great things, but they are not scripture. I personally had sorta replaced scripture with these books...not that I thought the books were as important as scripture, but more that I thought since I was reading and learning from them it was good enough....how scarey. I am actually ashamed to admit that "out loud." But it makes me wonder how many of us are doing that?
I am really excited b/c just last night I started a new Bible study with a group of moms. I am really looking forward to it. And ironically as I sat in the room last night I was sorta confused b/c they didn't hand out a book...you know a Bible study book? I thought it kinda odd that we would begin a study without a book. Later they handed out a "plan" if you will, that showed what they study would look like. I was puzzled that we would be studying just a verse or two each day. Yes, we are getting a book sometime soon, but for starters they just want us studying the Word of God. How simple. How amazing. How just what I needed at the moment I needed it. God knew what his girl needs. He gave it to me, then He told me why.
I have started this "simple" study. WHEW. I think it's going to be really good. And you know what is even more exciting? I have "studied" two verses and now I can't WAIT to get to another one tomorrow! God is growing my desire for His word! Which is the very thing I have been asking Him to do for weeks! Maybe now I have gotten some of the distractions out of my way and I can truly love Him more!
Now, if I can just keep from comparing myself to the other moms in the study!
Thursday, May 24, 2012
WHY?
Why are you here? Haven't you given up on me yet? Seriously....in MARCH I told you I was making a comeback....here it is almost JUNE (three months later) and I am FINALLY making another post. Oh, no! I am glad you are here, I am just baffled that you would choose to read ANYTHING I might write.
Truth is, I have thought about MANY things I would LIKE to post on here, so many, I just decided to not. Due to lack of time...or maybe just plain laziness. Then I thought I would just post and say, goodbye. That I won't post anymore. Again, not because I didn't want to, but more b/c I just didn't have time. But I didn't want to....truth is, when I look at those of you who are following me here, many of you are some of my life long friends. There's one or two of you I don't know, (which by the way it amazes me that you would be here and stick with my randomness even though you haven't met me!!), two or so that I count as mentors, but the truth is, I really do care about the twelve of you that follow me here. I love you ladies and I love feelings somewhat connected to you :)
And so, now you are wondering why I chose to post....aren't you? Well, you see, Matt and I deleted our fb pages. No, we didn't deactivate them we deleted them. They are gone, well they will be in about a week. It will be like fb never even existed in our homes. Except it did. And, oh it kills me to say this, but....I miss it. GAH! I didn't want to miss it. . .but I do. I could go back.....I have one more week till it is completely gone. I could sign in right now and it would ALL be back, but I can't. See, this has been one of the BEST weeks my family has had in a LONG time. A LONG time. I have done much better keeping up with housework, and being nice to my kids, I have found time to post to our family blog and I have just been a happier mom. So I can't go back. I know for sure if I did things would head downhill FAST. I just don't have the self control to do it anymore. I would read all about everyone else's BEST days and compare them to my worst. I went to bed at night frustrated that my husband didn't do the things those men did, that my kids didn't do the things those kids did, that I didn't do the things that she did, that my friends didn't do the things that those friends did and so on....you get it, don't you?
I now realize that I am thankful that my _____ didn't do what so-and-so's _____ did b/c my ________ is mine. And this is my life. Not theirs....so I shouldn't compare. I don't know why I ever did....and I know I won't stop, but this is MY life that God has blessed ME with. And I love it. I love it even more now that I am not reading all about everyone elses!
And then....oh gosh, then I would JUDGE others based on what they posted.. SERIOUSLY?!? That was just NOT okay at all. I would see someone in person and suddenly be upset about something they posted or said on fb. WHAT in the world? SO, that settled it. I had to be done.
Now don't take that the wrong way, I LOVE to know what is going on in others lives, and I miss it terribly. But I just can't (for me and my life) spend my days reading all about everyone--and yeah, I mean everyone. I had over 500 friends. THAT my friends is a bit over the top for me!
So why am I telling you this? B/c my mind still works in fb world. There are things I want to tell people. Things that are going on in my world, things that are important to me, I want to share, but not with 500+ people! That is where all this comes in. I just want to get out of my mind a few things now and then. And, I like being able to share with you :)
This isn't my new fb. I promise that. It's just a way for me get some of my need to express myself out!! I promise I won't post everyday...probably not even every week, but I want to post some....here and there. It won't be regular, I don't think.....shucks it may even be three more months before I post again...but maybe not. ;)
whew. I am glad I got THAT out. OH! And one other thing...I don't think facebook is bad. I think it is AWESOME...for some people. Just not for me! Now...I am going to post something totally different...I think ;)
Truth is, I have thought about MANY things I would LIKE to post on here, so many, I just decided to not. Due to lack of time...or maybe just plain laziness. Then I thought I would just post and say, goodbye. That I won't post anymore. Again, not because I didn't want to, but more b/c I just didn't have time. But I didn't want to....truth is, when I look at those of you who are following me here, many of you are some of my life long friends. There's one or two of you I don't know, (which by the way it amazes me that you would be here and stick with my randomness even though you haven't met me!!), two or so that I count as mentors, but the truth is, I really do care about the twelve of you that follow me here. I love you ladies and I love feelings somewhat connected to you :)
And so, now you are wondering why I chose to post....aren't you? Well, you see, Matt and I deleted our fb pages. No, we didn't deactivate them we deleted them. They are gone, well they will be in about a week. It will be like fb never even existed in our homes. Except it did. And, oh it kills me to say this, but....I miss it. GAH! I didn't want to miss it. . .but I do. I could go back.....I have one more week till it is completely gone. I could sign in right now and it would ALL be back, but I can't. See, this has been one of the BEST weeks my family has had in a LONG time. A LONG time. I have done much better keeping up with housework, and being nice to my kids, I have found time to post to our family blog and I have just been a happier mom. So I can't go back. I know for sure if I did things would head downhill FAST. I just don't have the self control to do it anymore. I would read all about everyone else's BEST days and compare them to my worst. I went to bed at night frustrated that my husband didn't do the things those men did, that my kids didn't do the things those kids did, that I didn't do the things that she did, that my friends didn't do the things that those friends did and so on....you get it, don't you?
I now realize that I am thankful that my _____ didn't do what so-and-so's _____ did b/c my ________ is mine. And this is my life. Not theirs....so I shouldn't compare. I don't know why I ever did....and I know I won't stop, but this is MY life that God has blessed ME with. And I love it. I love it even more now that I am not reading all about everyone elses!
And then....oh gosh, then I would JUDGE others based on what they posted.. SERIOUSLY?!? That was just NOT okay at all. I would see someone in person and suddenly be upset about something they posted or said on fb. WHAT in the world? SO, that settled it. I had to be done.
Now don't take that the wrong way, I LOVE to know what is going on in others lives, and I miss it terribly. But I just can't (for me and my life) spend my days reading all about everyone--and yeah, I mean everyone. I had over 500 friends. THAT my friends is a bit over the top for me!
So why am I telling you this? B/c my mind still works in fb world. There are things I want to tell people. Things that are going on in my world, things that are important to me, I want to share, but not with 500+ people! That is where all this comes in. I just want to get out of my mind a few things now and then. And, I like being able to share with you :)
This isn't my new fb. I promise that. It's just a way for me get some of my need to express myself out!! I promise I won't post everyday...probably not even every week, but I want to post some....here and there. It won't be regular, I don't think.....shucks it may even be three more months before I post again...but maybe not. ;)
whew. I am glad I got THAT out. OH! And one other thing...I don't think facebook is bad. I think it is AWESOME...for some people. Just not for me! Now...I am going to post something totally different...I think ;)
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